What a rollercoaster time

As the title suggests these last couple of weeks have been shear hell for us.....

We went for our routine 20 week scan only to discover the baby had a problem, an exompholos...basically part of the intestines protruding, a bit like a hernia. Not a problem in itself but in some cases can actually signify a much greater problem.

We got booked in for a more detailed scan at the womens hospital in Birmingham, there we discovered to our horror that our little bean had not got a fully developed brain, she had abnormal kidneys and an abnormal heart. We were quite astonished at this as she had been so strong...kicking hard and from an early time, then every scan they'd commented on the strong heartbeat.

We lost our precious little angel on Thursday 20th July. I delivered her on Saturday 22nd July at 22:12. I was glad I was able to have the short time with her as I know Paul is, and the delivery, although I wasnt looking forward to it was such an amazing experience.

Little bean had patau syndrome, a horrible syndrome that affects a small minority.
This has been devestating for us as a family but we are coping so well as we have a strong relationship and we are strong people.

Keep watching this space as we intend to try for number 2 very soon....